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FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND - leona lewis Sunday, April 20, 2008

well, i've heard things about the last day of earth and all.. 2011, 2012? notreally sure..
here's what i found..

Five years and counting: Will the world end in 2012?
By Vince Darcangelo
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Source: http://dailycamera.com

The end is near. Well, more specifically, it's five years from this Friday: Dec. 21, 2012 — or so the doomsayers would have you believe.
Others believe we're five years from an unprecedented spiritual awakening.
Whatever you believe, there's no denying that the 2012 movement has become a hot topic.
Just take a walk through the non-fiction aisle of the nearest bookstore.
Joseph Lawrence's "Apocalypse 2012: A Scientific Investigation into Civilization's End" and Daniel Pinchbeck's "2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl" are some of the more popular titles filling bookshelves these days.

Most recently, Louisville-based Sounds True, a publisher of spiritual books, audio programs and DVDs, published the book "The Mystery of 2012: Predictions, Prophesies and Possibilities," an anthology featuring many of the leading scholars on the topic, including Pinchbeck and John Major Jenkins, an independent researcher who has studied 2012 for more than 20 years and discussed the anthology at a Dec. 6 book signing at the Boulder Book Store.
The big question these books are trying to answer, of course, is what's going to happen in 2012 — in particular on the winter solstice, Dec. 21.

Here's what is known: The ancient Mayan long-count calendar — a calendar that spans more than 5,000 years — comes to an end on Dec. 21, 2012.
This coincides with a galactic alignment in which the sun will align with the center of the Milky Way galaxy, an event that occurs once every 26,000 years, which could have potentially catastrophic consequences.
The galactic alignment has the potential to create a shift in the Earth's poles, which would cause disastrous environmental events.
Many view this, in conjunction with the end of the Mayan calendar, as a sign of the end times. Viewers of the History Channel should be familiar with this theory, as the channel has featured the doomsday scenario in numerous programs.

But there is another theory, led by the likes of Jenkins, who makes his home in Windsor, and has spent much of the past two decades living and working with the traditional Maya in Guatemala. For him, 2012 is not the end. It's a chance for an unprecedented spiritual awakening.
"It's an opportunity for human life to understand our true natures,"
he says. "There will be a great awakening to the greater potential that human beings have."
The doomsday theories, though, have captured the public's imagination and have often overshadowed Jenkins' work.

"It's a little disappointing to see the carnival aspect of 2012 on the upswing," he says. "Because of the large interest that 2012 is generating ... a lot of people will be distracted by the carnival barkers selling snake oil."
There could be something positive in this, however, for at the very least the doomsayers have drawn attention to the topic, Jenkins says.

"That just means, relatively speaking, that more people will be able to navigate their way through the labyrinth to get into the heart of the information."
People are talking. A year ago, if you had asked someone their opinion about 2012, they likely would have responded that it was their favorite Rush album.
Not anymore. In July, the New York Times Magazine ran a feature on 2012, and competing theories concerning the winter solstice of 2012 have gone from the fringe to the mainstream as the rival streams of perennial philosophy and apocalyptic prophecy have met at the confluence of popular culture.

"We're just seeing more titles. It seems there has constantly been one new 2012 book in circulation for the past year now," says Arsen Kashkashian, inventory manager at the Boulder Book Store, which has hosted 2012-themed readings by Pinchbeck and Jenkins in the past four months. "They used to be fringe things. They're being put out by the big publishers now."

As Dec. 21, 2007 draws near, it may be time to write up one final five-year plan. But should they be plans for the end of the world or just the end of the world as we know it? It depends on whose book you read.
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from me:
what if the world was suddenly ending?
what's the first thing you'll do when you see the this star rushing downwards to earth..
for me, i'll just huG my most loved, eLy.
eyes closed.
exchanging our last thoughts..
cherishing this very last moment together with you.
wherever we are, it be soon over..
and we'll still be together.. =")

but, anyway.. i dont wanna fuckin' die yet! damn.. i finish army.. 2009.. study 2010..
work and enjoy only till 2012?! no no no no no...
God, please dont end this world so quickly..
perhaps i should start going to church again..

if its really 2012.. hunny, we've only 4 years left..
do you know?? ="/
it means a lot to me..

pauL-
feeling afraid.

i5:08 AM .ePpauL.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Friday, yesterday.. everyone suddenly started screaming and cheering.. because we could have our half day off.. within minutes.. everyone changed and was prepared to book out.. =) i was wondering, what am i going to do? (phew..) everyone had a smile from ear to ear.. all had plans.. except for me..

i took the bus.. and upon reaching your place.. i finally decided to alight..
i did not know where you were and for the whole of the week what you've been doing..
i dint really know for what reasons i actually alighted.. maybe its the usual routine..
but this time round.. thoughts dashing through my mind..

i walked up to your door.. stoned there for a minute or so..
(sigh) instead, i decided to walk away..
i needed to see you, but on the other hand i kept ringing myself inside that i've already initiate that we needed a break..
i told myself, well maybe you were'nt at home.. maybe you're outside with someone else..
took the lift down.. i thought to myself.. ain't this scene look like when i saw you home the first time, and your ex was standing there waiting..
except for this time, i was going to be him..
something just smacked me back to reality..
but again, i told myself.. i initiated it..

you've shown that you've been happier too.
whenever i call it'll just spoil your day.. and i realised that the only imperfect thing in your world is me. ="
throughout the bus trip to lot 1, i had recall alot of those wonderful memories..
i needed something to lean on..

i thought of.. the times that we used to sit inside the bus together.
the time that you came into my house and drew a sunshine with the message.. "GOOD MORNING HUNNIE" on a cardboard piece and left it on my bed while i was sleeping..
things like these were coming and coming all of a sudden.. everything i could recall so clearly..
i wondered if i would pass by this place again. i thought to myself that, i should remember this bus service number "300"

i came to think of "900" too.. i thought of the times we would go back home together..
i thought of the times we tickled one another, ending up with you having all the bruises..
i thought of the times we walked pasa malam together =")
times we would eat at vista point.. go downstairs, walk here walk there..

i miss all these sweet memories..

slammed myself again saying, time's up..

i went to vivocity.. making a guess that you might be there..
i visited every shop. i walked every level of the balcony..
i went to the place where you decorated the glass with the heart-shaped stickers..
i remember the bench was filled with the wonderful heart shaped chocolates too..
you were waiting for me to come.. it was our valentine's day!
it was such a nice time we had spent together..
i walked to the place we had our candlelight dinner..
i saw a few other people from far.. that i thought it could be you..
i was thinking too much..

went home, and came out again.. to Chua Chu Kang.. i called you..
but you dint want to be bothered..
and again, i left..

i saw on the newspaper this movie player which i wanted one.. there's discount at plaza singapura and some other outlets..
i tried to ask you out..
once more, now i get what you mean..
yes, fucktard..
thats why i did'nt get it.

im confused, because on one hand its hard letting go, and on the other hand you're just being "the way you are".
what hurts most is when you actually said,
"NS, you've a companion."
"Sex is not a problem?"
"free flow of supplies to be brought to your bunk"
THIS is how you actually perceive of me ="/
learning of this is one of the reasons i've initiated this break up.
because i don't need these ="]
i just wanna show you, that you don't have to be my slave if you think that's what i make you feel like.

its just upsetting..
and dint i told you, esplanade suck.. =")
and also, it dint took effect immediately.
you still would not listen.

you got what you wanted?
did you see the lights of the tall buildings, all turning off together?
no, but this candle has just been blown.
leaving its wax, "Wasted".

ePpauL.

i2:44 PM .ePpauL.