there is, SO ................................................................................................................................................. much, i would like to blog about. but everytime when i see this blank page, i just dont know where to start.

lets start thn, about my feelings now : C O N F U S E D.
everyone of us, during a certain point of time in life would realize, or start realising that we would very much want the best of everything we could get hold of.
but having said this, everything comes with consequences; or in my case, "a trade".

i know that she treats me very well. i know how much she loves me. and i know, i could never, Ever find anyone like you.
which of your girlfriends, cooks for you often? makes hearts using eggs, packs it nicely in a tupperware and personally delivers it right to you; when you're having a busy day, when u never had time for lunch or dinner.
skips her own meals to save up for expensive snacks for you to stock up in your own army camp's cabinet.
cries and tuck herself to bed when you are out playing your games, when u never gave her the attention she wanted.
i feel so useless right now.

but with all these love you've showered me. the trade is, my freedom and opportunities in future.
example when i told you about the SIA's recruitment. why should you feel so insercure? i was already stuck in this love web of yours. there's no need to go aggresive and bite for every inch i move.

what makes me happy: my hobbies. my passion. volleyball, games. these are things that take me away from this world for all i care.
my friends. how many do i have left with now? I mean REAL, TRUE, friends.
if you're going to take away everything from me. what am i left with. where are my opportunities going to come from in future.

this is the decision i want to make right now. but i just cant decide. because baby im still, and always in love with you. it feels like nothing can take me away from you. but what about my future? have you thought about this for me?

i used to be, outgoing, noisy, irritating, fun, and daring.
now? enclosed, quiet, lone, and i am even lazy to SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF. DAMN!
i just cant belive it.
and some people can mess with me. i dont wanna say who.
but im going to start standing up for myself from today onwards.

to be continued... i dont know when, but i will continue this entry. i've alot more to say. i just dont know what now. GOOD NIGHT!

i12:15 AM .ePpauL.

niCe' peopLe

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pauL

DOB: twenty8th July 198yeIght
Company: SAF. sigh.. =(
Occupation: Hired by her to be her all time hunnie.



loves
[+]Hunny. (*****)
[+]to feel loved (****)
[+]My Ring (*****)
[-]tO be rICh =)(****)
[-]tO feel rIch =D (****)
[+]tHoughtfuL gIfts (**)
[-]more Jeans (**)
[-]new shoeS! (**)
[-]variety of tops. (**)
[-]buy branded stuffs myself (***)
[-]get myself into SIM.(****)
[-]Degree... (***)
[-]Banking industry (***)
[-]going out with family =D (***)
[-]friends. (***)
[+]Movies! (***)
[-]48hrs a day! =)(**)
[-]get my own STi.=)(****)
[-]audi R8. @.@, (*****)


hates
[x]Who Sees it totally different.
[x]Whom never listen. }=(
[x]Some people shld just Fck off.
[x]fake impressions.

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