Friday, yesterday.. everyone suddenly started screaming and cheering.. because we could have our half day off.. within minutes.. everyone changed and was prepared to book out.. =) i was wondering, what am i going to do? (phew..) everyone had a smile from ear to ear.. all had plans.. except for me..

i took the bus.. and upon reaching your place.. i finally decided to alight..
i did not know where you were and for the whole of the week what you've been doing..
i dint really know for what reasons i actually alighted.. maybe its the usual routine..
but this time round.. thoughts dashing through my mind..

i walked up to your door.. stoned there for a minute or so..
(sigh) instead, i decided to walk away..
i needed to see you, but on the other hand i kept ringing myself inside that i've already initiate that we needed a break..
i told myself, well maybe you were'nt at home.. maybe you're outside with someone else..
took the lift down.. i thought to myself.. ain't this scene look like when i saw you home the first time, and your ex was standing there waiting..
except for this time, i was going to be him..
something just smacked me back to reality..
but again, i told myself.. i initiated it..

you've shown that you've been happier too.
whenever i call it'll just spoil your day.. and i realised that the only imperfect thing in your world is me. ="
throughout the bus trip to lot 1, i had recall alot of those wonderful memories..
i needed something to lean on..

i thought of.. the times that we used to sit inside the bus together.
the time that you came into my house and drew a sunshine with the message.. "GOOD MORNING HUNNIE" on a cardboard piece and left it on my bed while i was sleeping..
things like these were coming and coming all of a sudden.. everything i could recall so clearly..
i wondered if i would pass by this place again. i thought to myself that, i should remember this bus service number "300"

i came to think of "900" too.. i thought of the times we would go back home together..
i thought of the times we tickled one another, ending up with you having all the bruises..
i thought of the times we walked pasa malam together =")
times we would eat at vista point.. go downstairs, walk here walk there..

i miss all these sweet memories..

slammed myself again saying, time's up..

i went to vivocity.. making a guess that you might be there..
i visited every shop. i walked every level of the balcony..
i went to the place where you decorated the glass with the heart-shaped stickers..
i remember the bench was filled with the wonderful heart shaped chocolates too..
you were waiting for me to come.. it was our valentine's day!
it was such a nice time we had spent together..
i walked to the place we had our candlelight dinner..
i saw a few other people from far.. that i thought it could be you..
i was thinking too much..

went home, and came out again.. to Chua Chu Kang.. i called you..
but you dint want to be bothered..
and again, i left..

i saw on the newspaper this movie player which i wanted one.. there's discount at plaza singapura and some other outlets..
i tried to ask you out..
once more, now i get what you mean..
yes, fucktard..
thats why i did'nt get it.

im confused, because on one hand its hard letting go, and on the other hand you're just being "the way you are".
what hurts most is when you actually said,
"NS, you've a companion."
"Sex is not a problem?"
"free flow of supplies to be brought to your bunk"
THIS is how you actually perceive of me ="/
learning of this is one of the reasons i've initiated this break up.
because i don't need these ="]
i just wanna show you, that you don't have to be my slave if you think that's what i make you feel like.

its just upsetting..
and dint i told you, esplanade suck.. =")
and also, it dint took effect immediately.
you still would not listen.

you got what you wanted?
did you see the lights of the tall buildings, all turning off together?
no, but this candle has just been blown.
leaving its wax, "Wasted".

ePpauL.

i2:44 PM .ePpauL.

niCe' peopLe

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pauL

DOB: twenty8th July 198yeIght
Company: SAF. sigh.. =(
Occupation: Hired by her to be her all time hunnie.



loves
[+]Hunny. (*****)
[+]to feel loved (****)
[+]My Ring (*****)
[-]tO be rICh =)(****)
[-]tO feel rIch =D (****)
[+]tHoughtfuL gIfts (**)
[-]more Jeans (**)
[-]new shoeS! (**)
[-]variety of tops. (**)
[-]buy branded stuffs myself (***)
[-]get myself into SIM.(****)
[-]Degree... (***)
[-]Banking industry (***)
[-]going out with family =D (***)
[-]friends. (***)
[+]Movies! (***)
[-]48hrs a day! =)(**)
[-]get my own STi.=)(****)
[-]audi R8. @.@, (*****)


hates
[x]Who Sees it totally different.
[x]Whom never listen. }=(
[x]Some people shld just Fck off.
[x]fake impressions.

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